February 2012
I do read your stuff. I don’t do it as often as I used to. I periodically like to see how you’re doing. We don’t talk but I could care less if we were friends. I find comfort knowing you’re happy/having fun. I felt it was unfair for a while because things were going really good for me immediately and it seemed like you were stressed 24/7 working your ass off and hiding your...
I’m not saying this to shake you up
I’m just saying this to wake you up
Don’t you, ever, get too, comfortable.
I told my mom I am going to Cambodia this summer regardless of what she says. She continues to say no and ask me why I want to go. I told her I didn’t want to forget where I came from and I want to do charity work and spend my first vacation there. She totally shut the idea down. I thought that maybe she would be okay with the idea, only because yennoe I’m trying to get in touch with...
Every time I ask someone how their weekend is and they mention being drunk/ or playing bp I automatically tune out. I don’t find it at all interesting. Drinking is lame. I guess I prefer other activities.
Don’t need no make up, don’t need no mirror Don’t need no nothing, there’s nothing that I know clearer Don’t need no lipstick, don’t need no heels Just need you, I need you to keep it real
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Why is insurance so expensive? Why has my cellphone bill so expensive? I don’t even call anyone -_-“.. Why are the people I miss so much so far away? like Hawaii? Kuwait/Middle East? Texas? Ocean side? and why do I have so many damn pillows on my bed when I sleep alone?
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some things I don't like
wet socks/towels/clothes
good coffee that was hot and then completely cold
cup ring stains
taking out the trash from bathrooms
pads and toothpaste stains on mirrors
dust and impossible places to reach that collect dust
dead flowers
making the bed
spending the whole day in the house when its so much prettier outside
when you run out of toothpaste and face wash
when you just got paid and...
It’s terribly hard for me to truly say that I have moved on and I’m ready for a relationship. I’ll admit it. I haven’t accepted the fact that some things happened that I wish were possible to change. I am happy with myself, but I no longer have emotions. My heart is very fickle and I know what love is— I don’t feel love anymore. I guess my mind is still pretty...
Family first, it’s more a blessing than a curse.
High alert
I’ve been under a tremendous amount of stress. I’m really behind in school. I fucked up so bad last semester I think all of my acceptances are being revoked. I’m ashamed to admit this to anyone. I took on a job and worked too many hours that led on to not enough sleep or time to study. I tried to maintain a relationship or something the least bit close to that and failed...
I’m all for being there for someone else, and being a caring friend… BUT sometimes I just need to take a breather and put myself first. It’s not me trying to avoid you, it’s me trying to stay focused. I get that everyone has problems but I’m not going to put yours ahead of mine. Sorry. I enjoy most people’s company, but Jesus a girl needs some space.
Putting someone else's happiness over your own
dearchelseaaa:
Can either be the greatest act of selflessness or the worse thing you can do to yourself…
If They Head Right- Cali Swag District
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Things aren’t always going to be rainbow and butterflies, that I know. But when shit hits the wire, its all over.
Seventeen and already have a few bills to pay :’( Why are you so high Gas bill!?!?! I love my mom for still trying to give me “an allowance” or “lunch money” when she knows damn well I can feed myself with the money I earn from working. I love my old woman so much. We don’t get along almost 95% of the time, but I sure do appreciate that 5% when it does come...
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"The good die young"
I lowkey hate this saying. The good don’t die young. The TROUBLED die young. I don’t know if it was because of the suicide awareness assembly that we put on but I’ve noticed a lot of problems with our kids lately. I’ve had a few girls— barely just freshmen come into the care center with racks and racks of cuts on their arms. There were more lines on the arms than...
I come home from work and I’m wide awake, but too tired to do my homework. I don’t know what to do with myself.
I have nothing to complain about as of right now.
I love how things are going with my life, especially with love, friends and family—things I struggled with for the past two years.
I appreciate the power of a conversation, the chills I get from a kiss and the heartwarming feeling I get when my mommy smiles.
I’m so cheesy right now but whatever, I’m happy..
.. and the best...
slip of the tongue
I can’t believe I saw you. That is so weird how that happened. Every time I see a white van just like the one you drove, I always assume it’s your family. It’s not the same white one as your dad’s though. The only reason why I gazed towards the van was because I wasn’t sure if you were making a left or not. Once I crossed the street, and I saw you wave your hand.. it...
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Getting the fuck out the ghetto, cause i’m tired of crime. But it’s a crime that i feel this fucking waste of time. But sometimes i feel like this shit here is a waste of time, yours and mine.
The best people who do the most for others and in general, work hard.. do not ask for praise. The best people are humble even though they know inside that they deserve appreciation. When those people do get noticed, it’ll be worth the wait.
Success happens in private, failure happens in full view.
One of the best things about the kind of love I got is that we work together lol. It makes up for the busy schedules and words can’t explain how good it feels to go home w/ my bee after a tiring night at work, just cruising together and resting up.
theweekend
my motivation to speed through this week
Girl’s night friday watching our man do his thing in The Vow
Manipedi w/ my mama and bff
work 8-4:30
paydayyyyy $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$.
my new diva watch shipment.
party &bullshit w/meow
making corsages and boutonnieres for cute couples again :’)
cheeesecake factory? after how long?!
Sweethearts ball :) #team whatfactor
three day...
stuck up
Honestly, I just miss you being an asshole to me and me being an even bigger asshole back and that being okay.